17 years ago I was radically saved from tormenting spirits. I had sold my soul to the devil and the tormenting began. I thought I had ‘ghosts’ in my house. I thought I was going absolutely mad. I had even gone so far as to ask a Dr. for medication because I was ‘seeing things’, but I didn’t follow through. Weeks went by, I couldn’t sleep. A giant 10 ft black figure would hover over me in bed, every night, I was beyond scared to be in my home. My dog Herbie would lay on my chest and growl at the demon, protecting me in bed. It would make nosies and move things in the house, slam doors, toss dog food across the room, you name it, it happened.
When my students that came to my house for singing lessons began to ask me, “Jessica, do you have ghosts?” “Jessica, a man just walked down your hallway!” “Jessica, why is there an old fashioned phone ringing in your living room, you don’t have a phone in your living room” I began to realize I wasn’t going crazy. They were all seeing and hearing these things too. For a while I would laugh it off, and was scared to confirm what they were seeing and hearing was true, but when the phone incident happened with a client named Julie, I admitted it, Yes, I have a ghost. We ran to the living room, looking to see if anyone had left a phone there. We tore that place apart. There was no phone, of course. She left and never came back.
I tried everything to get rid of that thing. Crystals, sage, tarot cards. My friend Duane. God bless him, performed an American Indian prayer vigil and healing ceremony. He tried but he said he has never felt something that dark before. I felt like I exhausted every religion, every friend, I didn’t know what to do.
One day I was talking to my Mom about it. She said honey, “ the only way I know how to get rid of spirits is the Holy Spirit” I still didn’t try Jesus but a mustard seed was planted. I didn’t try Jesus because I was a non-believer at that time. I had a hard childhood, was wild in my 20’s and I couldn’t believe in something that would allow bad things to happen to me, so I stayed away from Church even though I went to Church as a child.
The torment continued… and on November 8, 2008, I hadn’t slept or ate a thing in days, and I finally had an emotional breakdown and dropped to my knees in my living room. I SCREAMED TO GOD, “IF YOU ARE REAL SHOW UP!”Crying and yelling at him with my arms in the air, in my house with my Cavalier Herbie. I was exhausted and finally broken. I screamed to him over and over “I need peace in my home! I need peace in my home! I need peace in my HOME!” He didn’t show up that night, but he was about to.
The next morning, November 9th, randomly my brothers girlfriend ( now wife - who knew what was going on for a couple months), called me that morning and asked if I wanted to go to Church. I just said, “sure” What the heck. She picked me up and we went to Christ Church on Old Hickory In Nashville, Tennessee. We got there early, as she hadn’t been there in so long, they changed the time of the service to later.
The Church was empty and we went in and sat down in the front-middle section of the pews; maybe 8 rows back. Since we had time, she opened up her bible and there were highlighted lines. She casually said, “oh this is interesting, have you ever heard anyone speak in tongues?” I said ‘no’ and she read me the scripture. We thought nothing more about it. People started coming in, the Church got filled up. The Choir took their place in their green robes, maybe 80 of them, and they began to singing. On the last song, the congregation sang a Hymn “I Will Serve The” and everyone was asked to stand for it. After the song was over, a man standing with lifted hands, over in the section to the right of me, began speaking in tongues. Everyone did as the Bible said, it was quiet and they waited for an interpreter. A few moments later, the only African American guy in the Choir, right strait in front of me, dead center, began to interpret the tongues. He said:
For I’ve heard your cries, saith The Lord
I have seen your sorrow, I’ve seen your pain
With joy shall I return unto the
Saith the Lord our God
But this is my desire
That you will rejoice in my righteousness and my hand of mercy
This day is the day of joy, that I shall fill my house and rejoicing shall be your portion
For there is healing in my wings
There is a mighty word of confidence that shall fulfill the promises that I have promised you
Promises in the private
Promises of prophet
Promises of hope
And promises of faith shall be accomplished in this place.
Let your eyes look up and look high, and see the righteousness and salvation of our God
For this is a day that hands will be lifted and hearts will rejoice
For healing will be found in your home
Healing will be found in your home
Healing will be found in your home
Saith the Lord Our God
The 3rd time he said that, I grabbed Hannahs arm and cried “did you hear what he said?” Over and over crying. I felt something come inside me, and I began shaking and fell over, as they say - slain in the Holy Spirt, trembling on the ground. Down I went. People were laying hands on me, praying on me. I don’t remember getting up, but I do remember leaving. People were staring at me and smiling but I was in shock. I went back home and it was like light was shining through the roof into my home. I wasn’t quite sure of what happened to me at that time but I was shaking like a bell for a couple weeks. I felt like a brand new baby. My sisters Pastor got on the phone with me and said, “you received the holy spirit”! I asked him how long was I gonna keep shaking? I was cold! He said, “ I don’t know, but you’ll miss it when it’s done” He told me it the Torah it says, you will shake like a bell. I’ve never found a scripture with those exact words, but I knew what he meant and I realized, I became born again. THIS is what that means. I hadn’t asked Jesus into my heart, as Pastors say you should. I was overtaken with the Holy Spirit and KNEW God brought me to a Church that preaches the words of Jesus. I knew then, I was going to follow Jesus for the rest of my life. I was a born again Christian.
I’ve asked him into my heart a million times since then because some Pastors tell you too, so I go along with it, but I KNEW when I received the Holy Spirit I was saved, and forgiven, and a new creation. I was put on this earth to serve Jesus and my singing needed to also.
I have those amazing words from God written because I went back to that Church a couple years later and asked for the video of that service. I have the important clip of it on my computer and the service on a CD. I’ve also typed out Gods words given through interpretation and printed and framed them for my viewing pleasure .
Very few people know my testimony, and I know it’s time. Demonic strongholds are very real and tormenting spirits are real. I am a testimony of that and what Jesus can do, literally save you from going to the lake of fire and a life of torment.
Now, after so many years, the world has tried so hard to pull me back, but I keep on fighting, I keep on sharing, and for most of it, by myself. I have never had a spiritual mentor and I don’t have one now. I would love one, but God has never given that to me. I do have very strong Christians around me finally, but it has been very lonely for most of my walk in regards to humans and people In my life. I don’t have a lot of family support. When I got saved, I lost most of my friends, and I stay busy working, spending time with my husband and loving on young people and Volunteering, I hadn’t had time for much else.
I have stayed the course, I’ve made mistakes, I’ve questioned so many things and I have now, FINALLY read the entire New Testament, working through the Old, and have my path set forth for me. The closer I get to Jesus the more friends I loose, and then stronger, new Christians friends come into my life that I align with. Gifts they are! I have been, for all intensive purposes, Pastoring or mentoring for a while which lead me to desire to get a deeper level of what that means in my Christian world. I need to make sure I’m always honoring God and saying the right things, and guiding them in the right way, so I found CLI. Currently I teach voice, lead Worship at Churches who need me and I do desire to speak about my testimony if God wants to open the door for that in the future. I teach Master Classes at Churches often on singing, worship and giving vocal techniques and spiritual focus on why we are there while helping them be better singers for the kingdom.
Last year I gave up on secular music completely leaving a multi award winning band to fully obey and honor what God is telling me to do. Give him my voice as a living sacrifice. He wanted everything, every part of me not just some of me. Once he spoke, I left my band in the middle of an album release. Yikes, I did not make people very happy with that decision but I knew it was my calling, calling me. I have been writing and putting out Christian music ever since, under the name Jess Ford because everyone at every church, for some reason, they only ever call me Jess, so Jess it is. Releasing music is part of my worship and ministry, I am sharing the Gospel. All my songs as of late have been written about important stories and people in the Bible. For instance, I wrote a song called “Holy Water” which is literally about the baptism of Jesus with KJV scripture built in and most recently I am almost finished with a song called “I’m The Woman At The Well” which will tell her story, and at the same time let everyone know, I was her, and now I am also her, a sinner and now an evangelist going to tell the world about Jesus, he gives us spiritual water, ah! I am acting as her in the forthcoming music video to tell her story and bring her to life. I’m sharing scripture through songs.
10 years ago when I moved back to California, I dedicated my teaching business to Jesus. I changed my website over to a Christian business and wow, has God showed up! Every since I did that, I have had 18 clients on American Idol and 4 on The Voice, one is currently on this season. Jesus continues to bless me. My goal is to become a Minister through your program and even if I have to continue to do it alone, I will get it done, because I know there are people who will need my strength and through your program I feel like I’ll be better will be better equipped to share, to quote scripture, to mentor, to lead worship and to share the good news.
💚 “The closer I get to Jesus, the more I want my whole life and voice to belong to Him.” ❤️